Now 2.28

Today, I really started the process to get my driver's license. I have to take an 8-hour course on safe driving first. Used to be that only teenagers had to take it but they reworked that law. At first I was uber-miffed, didn't want to have to pay for a class that wasn't going to teach me anything I didn't already know. (perhaps a little prideful, there, aye?)

Walking up to class I wondered why I had so easily embraced this change. I want to get my license before my b-day (in April). But I'd had other goals that I've not accomplished, that I've ignored and watched the due date creep closer and closer and then disappear into history.

Realized that life is the unexpected. Unexpected change, unexpected opportunities, unexpected friends, unexpected enemies. Gotta find a way to cope...but mostly you just have to go with it.

I do hope that this isn't my 'conquer-the-world' moment for the year, though. Will try to keep this ball rollin'.

Post Picture: A sort of faux macro. It's a macro but not taken with a macro lens. It's part of an earring, a Helix earring. New ones are coming. :)

Now 9.18

A video that's actually a commercial. The brothers and I find (and watch) a lot of commercials online. Heh. This one is almost too cute.

I'm alive. The job almost over. Yay!

Now 5.26

Where have all the blog commenters gone? Perhaps it's selfish to ask. But I used to get about 2 comments a day and don't get any now, so I'm just wondering...

I try to reserve 'Now' for big revelations or milestones, at least I shall from now on.

I found out an old classmate of mine is pregnant. We've lived in the same town for the last 15 years so we run into acquaintances from times gone by occasionally. We (Mom Bro2 and I) ran into the father of that classmate today. It threw me. Not in a judging way, I don't think. I just didn't think she would, now. Younger girls get pregnant, I know. It's just...I don't know. At it brings back the fact that we aren't kids anymore...that we've grown up. I couldn't imagine myself with a baby...maybe because I'm so unbelievably single. Ha!

I'm not sure I should bring my eBay 'life' into my elpy 'life' but I have 5 watchers on the fondue fountain. I'm very excited about this. I've tried selling it more than once since we got it. Don't give someone a fondue fountain unless you know they like/want one. C'mon. A toaster anyone can use...unless you're on a low-carb thing I guess. But if it's an oven...anyway, a fondue fountain has only one purpose. Thanks, anyway. :) (Do I sound ungrateful? I'm not really...I loved the thought behind it.)

Post Picture: Ironically, taken last year...not now. Out of the car window. I miss that car.

Now 5.20

I'm about halfway through my list of to-do's for the day. Threw in a couple extra. It helps me to keep track of what I've done and forces me to want to do. I don't like feeling like I'm wasting time...though I do enjoy surfing the Internet mindlessly.

I signed up on Seeking Designers. They emailed me first! O.o. Perhaps, I shouldn't show such shock. I guess I have been emailed before about my shop, but one turned out to be a scam and the other waaaay outside of my current price range. I asked more questions and will give it a shot.

Listed Sumeria and the alphanumeric magnets today. Listing always makes me feel so accomplished...provided the pics look nice.

I'm get dirty looks from my family again, okay not really. But I stay on the computer a lot, editing pics, emailing, listing. Now, my mom's found all this stuff she wants listed on eBay and I'm the only who knows how to list there. (if you're looking for a chocolate fondue fountain let me know.) I'm in between wanting a laptop or a D-SLR. I don't have the money for both. It's not my fault I need the computer or my fault that we only have 1. :/

Post Picture: It is the bud of an alium plant in my front yard. (Thanks to the Etsyans on forums for sharing their knowledge...I didn't know what it was before last night.) Here's what it look like in bloom.

Guess if I were to get psychological I'd say I chose this pic because new things are about to bloom. I try the therapist thing. :P

Now 3.20

I have to projects going on at the same time. I could make it three, but I'd like to get a little further along in one first. They're both jewelry so it's good. One's a duplicate necklace...I think. The other is a bracelet. I want it to be a necklace, but I think if I make a bracelet first I can get a feel for what I'm trying to do. I can't sketch it because it's rather chaotic. It could look really nice, or really amateurish. I'll have to see...if I ever stop undoing it.

Post Picture: My arm. The self-portrait I like best from today. I've taken (in more than one sense) to wearing a bracelet that was once my mom's. Her college boyfriend gave it to her, like when she was in college. I just think it's cool. It looks like a bent nail. Tinted and stuff in PSE. Flickr link.

Now 2.16

I joined the Etsy Photopalooza! today. To include pictures in my posts I am to do. So there!

You know it's not good when your mom says she's proud of you and the first thing you think is, when your head on your hand, "No, this horrible." Emotional rollercoasters suck.

Generally I try to post pictures of things that relate somehow to the post. I guess I'll say, and I'm reaching here, that I'm a mess like those loops, but hoping that out of all this there will be something good that lasts forever, or a long time. (Those old-school woven potholders are tough.)

Post Picture: From May of 2007- potholder loops, some on the loom, in the shadows. One of the pics my camera agreed to. It's such a cantankerous little thing.

Now 1.08

I mostly slothed today. (So that's not really a word. Go with me.) I have a new block to burn. The one in this picture is half done. They're about 3.5" square. I thought they'd be coasters, but it's too much to do that. Unless I can find people willing to pay about $20-40 each. I don't know what I'll do with it. But I'm gonna make it.

From my Twitter:
I miss, love, want, fear, long, hurt. It's badness and goodness, complicated and simple, extremely conflicting. Yet...I'm addicted. :/
I've always been careful, guarded. Where I am now is very new and scary. I'm unsure again, of myself, my choices. I'm tired again, having to constant fend off that crazy voice that says, "You shouldn't have done that."

I'll get through it, past it, over it. I have a phrase for that, but I'm not going to disclose it. I like to keep some of my cleverness secret. :P I'll be okay, in time.

Post Picture: The family and I went to NJ to pick up our new van. There's a long story there that isn't very interesting. I bought the camera and snapped that picture through the tinted van window. There was a huge flock of seagulls at the gas station. Several were perched on the lights, but that one was alone. I really like it so I thought I'd share. It's all moody and kinda dark.

Now 12.17

I have a new record month for sales. Last December I got 4, 3 of them were supplies. This December I've had 5, all handmade things. I'm so happy. :) If I get two more I'll have sold twice as much this year to last year. Numbers-wise it's kinda low, but it's a good statistic.

I did finally finish a set of coasters. However, I like them so much, I might keep them.

My dad really wants an D-SLR. This is great because I could use it. Haha. But, we'll have to see.

It snowed again. I'm a little over snow, now. I'd like 60 degree weather back. (I realize to some this is cold. Wimps. :P)

I may have gotten myself hired at a temp agency. I'm not sure, because I'm never sure. I've gotten company literature at the end of interviews before but I didn't actually get the job. I'll have to see. I'm not sure how I feel about this. Trying to view it as a means to an end.

Now 11.28

I found that book at a recent research trip to Barnes and Nobles. I got the titles I was looking for, making a Christmas list, but I can never just look at what I came for in a bookstore.

I don't knit. I barely crochet, but I now I desperately want to do both. I only want to make scarves. I didn't even like scarves until last year. This is very odd. But the scarves in that book are beautiful. I want to make them. Not that I NEED to diversify elpy any more. Sheesh.

Speaking of the shop, I listed these today:
The picture is clickable. More magnets, yep. These had been done for a while, but I held off listing them because...I don't really know. I just stalled for a while.

I'm also starting to like perusing stores in a sort of shopping. More like searching for clothes, for cheap. I never liked this before. At all. It was insane trying to get me to shop, plus, my clothes last forever since I haven't gotten any taller, only a little wider. :P More evidence of the change in me, I suppose. Interesting, I must say.