Zonked

My brain is so tired when I come home from work. The job isn't bad. I sit down a lot, a change from the last job I had where I stood up a lot. It's workin' with tax but in a tedious way that may become automated in a few years. I hope I haven't said too much. They have so many stipulations and particular-ities. (?) It's not bad money, though.

So I'm alive. Been doin' a bad job with the shop. I was getting good. Time management isn't my strong point. After 4pm when I get off, I want to just to sleep. I'll try to do better, make the most of this opportunity. It's not bad. It's really not.

I am still working on ideas, but that seems to be all I can muster. I'm even sketching, which is largely unheard of. It takes me a looooong time to unwind. Many kudos, to those who do it all.

Transition

Starting tomorrow I won't be able to blog and do anything on the internet from 8am-4pm everyday except Sunday. I will most likely be situated in a room with few/no windows, in a building, sorting mail. That's right, I got a job. I'm less than thrilled, but not as anxious, in the bad way, as I could be. It's a change. I hope I can adjust.

I also left a huge thing behind in March. I don't think it'll ever totally go away, I'm 97% positive it won't. It's a part of me. But I can't take the stress of hoping for it and having nothing happen. It's another change.

So today is the suspension bridge between where I was and where I'm going. I chose a path, made a turn, whatever you want to say. There were a lot of decisions, looking back, a lot of things indecisive me had to choose. I think I chose well, so far I regret none of it...which was a fear of mine. I keep hoping that one day, it'll all be worth it.

Post Picture: Around my house but you'll prolly never guess where. hehe.

April

It's April. It's also the 1st and I've been had twice. Ha!

I woke up feeling like it was new month. April and September have always been my favorite months. April for my b-day. September for...I don't know school, though I'm not in school at the moment.

There is so much I want to do- line sheets, consignment/wholesale, Minta- so much I am going to do -job and driver's license. I hope it turns from the dull greyness of winter soon. I'm ready. I want it.

Post Picture: A picture I took last year, but thought it was fitting, you know, turning over a new leaf...new month. Yeah.

Zephyr 3.31

I won't be sad to leave this month behind. It had it's good days, to be sure. I got some sales and stuff. April usually a good month.

Post Picture:My cake. Nope, not my birthday yet. That's next month. It's my 'Congrats on finally getting a job' cake that I bought myself from the 50% bakery shelf. Granted, homemade cakes are way better. But sometimes...

Teeter

I'm writing to say that I have nothing to say, nothing internet-safe...which is somewhat a ridiculous statement. But I'm not real good with being personal and this is my 'business' blog. heh

I want it to go away and take all the crazy feelings with it. But I'm afraid what I'll be left with, I'm afraid I'll be apathetic again, depressed again. I have a glimmer of childish hope, now. If I lose that...

I need hugs, prayers, cake. haha. But I'm not sure I deserve any of it. I'll stop now.
Shop News
Also, in a fairly important shop note, I will be reviewing and may be changing some of the prices of my handmade items in my shop. Probably won't fully happen until next month.