Goodbye Snow

Thought I'd post this as a farewell to snow..where I live anyway...I hope. It was gorgeous today, the kind of day that I'd been anticipating for a long time. It had been cold and snowy and grey for months...it WAS winter. Anyway, I'm not a meteorologist. I just hope the bitterly cold days are over for a while. This video is one reason why.

Now 4.09

Just sitting here, getting ready to blog, I realized I'm pretty happy with where I am. That's something I haven't thought or felt in a long time.

I miss the Internet like crazy, though. I wish I could tweet or blog some of the random things people say and do. (I'm an observer) but I can't even have my cell phone on me for most of the day. I'm working now, processing tax forms. That's probably all I can say without going to jail...and that might be too much. It's boring, but it's non-stop so that kinda un-bores it. Plus, we've gotten good enough, the people that work around me, that we can talk and work at the same time. I'd been out of this arena for a long time. I don't like the window-less room or the fluorescent lighting but it's not as bad as I thought it would be when I applied.

I'm also looking forward to my birthday. (not about to give out the actual date) There's no real reason, nothing special planned, I just am not dreading it, which someone my age shouldn't do anyway...I'm still on the lower side of the hill. I have dreaded every birthday for about 3-4 years. Another change.

There are things I still don't understand, don't like, wish were different about myself and various situations around me. But I have hope for them, that something good will happen if I just keep going. That's the challenge. I think I can do it.

Post Picture: It was to be a magnet for my mom's Bible study group but somehow the 'order' fell through. heh.

Sports Aside 4.05

may never see this again
Originally uploaded by lpdesigns

I may not have mentioned it before, I'm pretty sure I did, but I'm something of a sports fan. I'll sit down and watch a game with the brothers more often than not. I've even been accused of getting too involved. Ha! Baseball season just started, though with work and the fact that my stereo is busted most of my knowledge is being fueled by the internet.

I go away for a few days and the reformed Devil Rays are leading the AL East!?! What!?! Not that it really ever had anything to do with me. The Yankees have gotten owned by the Rays for years. And really, April games, don't truly count...well, they count but they're not indicative of anything...hopefully. It's all highly ironic.

Zonked

My brain is so tired when I come home from work. The job isn't bad. I sit down a lot, a change from the last job I had where I stood up a lot. It's workin' with tax but in a tedious way that may become automated in a few years. I hope I haven't said too much. They have so many stipulations and particular-ities. (?) It's not bad money, though.

So I'm alive. Been doin' a bad job with the shop. I was getting good. Time management isn't my strong point. After 4pm when I get off, I want to just to sleep. I'll try to do better, make the most of this opportunity. It's not bad. It's really not.

I am still working on ideas, but that seems to be all I can muster. I'm even sketching, which is largely unheard of. It takes me a looooong time to unwind. Many kudos, to those who do it all.

Transition

Starting tomorrow I won't be able to blog and do anything on the internet from 8am-4pm everyday except Sunday. I will most likely be situated in a room with few/no windows, in a building, sorting mail. That's right, I got a job. I'm less than thrilled, but not as anxious, in the bad way, as I could be. It's a change. I hope I can adjust.

I also left a huge thing behind in March. I don't think it'll ever totally go away, I'm 97% positive it won't. It's a part of me. But I can't take the stress of hoping for it and having nothing happen. It's another change.

So today is the suspension bridge between where I was and where I'm going. I chose a path, made a turn, whatever you want to say. There were a lot of decisions, looking back, a lot of things indecisive me had to choose. I think I chose well, so far I regret none of it...which was a fear of mine. I keep hoping that one day, it'll all be worth it.

Post Picture: Around my house but you'll prolly never guess where. hehe.